Why I dread family get-togethers (anxiety)
Next weekend is Easter weekend. My mom’s side of the family always gets together for Easter (ironically, the important holiday in our family). No matter what, we all get together for Easter, even if it’s a flight in or a 7 hour drive. My family, as you can tell by our choice holiday, isn’t exactly conventional.
For me… I always dread family get togethers. My parents are split so holidays were always confusing after a certain age and just not enjoyable, not really anyway. Some times is seemed like more stress than the benefit of happiness and being together like it’s supposed to be.
I’m excited for next weekend. I get to see my aunt and all of my cousins… I get to see my mom and my sister. I get to see all of that side of the family. I’m super excited… but I’m also stressed.
The closer it comes… the more I want to just, I don’t know, beat a pillow (I’ve never actually done that), scream? All of this anxiety is just building up. What if there’s emotional drama and stress? What if the drive there and back is more than I can handle in a short period of time? What about money or plans not going right? How about the stress of everything that could possibly go wrong?
I tend to think of the worst and hope for the best… then I’m not disappointed when it’s better than the worst that could happen… But it just isn’t good. It’s a stressful way to think… It builds up my anxiety way more than it should, but then the drop and anxiety attack when it doesn’t go wrong isn’t as bad.
I know that once we’re there, the hotel will be great and relaxing and then going to an awesome arcade place (1984) will be a blast. Easter day and watching all the kids search for eggs will be the best. Getting our Easter baskets (pleeeeeeeeease have yummy treats and rechargeable batteries and socks…. yes, I’m old enough to want socks…). I know everything will be fine and I just keep trying to think like that.
I just want everyone know… everyone that sits there and dreads those horrible family gatherings that it WILL be okay. I want you all to just try to relax, take a deep breath. Just typing all of this out has relaxed me some. I dread this upcoming weekend less and that’s because I know it will all be okay and I get to see my mom’s side of the family once more before I walk down the aisle.
I hope you all have a great Easter weekend and hopefully great upcoming family get togethers. Just relax!
Keep calm (or try to),